How fitting is the name?

As I have continued my search. Not for God, but for understanding beyond that paradym, I have been studying conscienceness. In neuro-linguistic terms my ranting at the God I Know is actually ranting at my own unconscience mind. Clearly there was never any God there speaking to my mind. It was my unconscience all along feeding back to me what it believed - what it had been trained to believe - was in my best interest. ie. If poverty was godly, and God's highest for me was to be godly, then anything that moved me out of poverty was fighting God and fighting God was not in my best interest. So unconsciously even while my unconscious mind was a creative machine (believing that is was God's creativity) any implimentation of a winning idea was sabatoged.

Then I read that one of the ways to gain mastery over your mind is to name your subconscious mind. I had inadvertantly named mine The God I Know. haha. Tiles are flipping right now, and thoughts and connections reordering in my mind as I contemplate this convenient truth. The God I knew is dead. The imposter posing as him was me all along. And yet that me, is the closest thing to a god I will ever meet, possessing as he does the power of creation and destruction, life and death, prosperity and abundance or utter ruin. So in fact the name The God I Know seems appropriate. It just has to be filled with warm friendly meaning rather than the hate and loathing the term has carried to this point.

It is needful to re-evaluate this entity, and forge a partnership. Realizing that even as the 95% partner he gives all the power to me. He is basically a simpleton. An idiot-savant. I tell him what is good, what is best, what is true, and he locks in and believes it and then sets out like a mad man to make sure that everything I do conforms to bring about the BEST as I had defined it. If I define best as poverty and suffering. He will make damn sure I get the very very very best.

And as I now define the best as wealth and abundance, abundance to give, abundance to share and experience and enjoy everything in this amazing world and time, he will set out like a mad man to make sure I get the very very very best. That is truly exciting.

So, here is to the wonderful God I Know! Cheers!